::Whole Package::

"I'll take you whoever and whatever you are.."

that was the words that we always said when we're in love.
blinded everything and assumed that when issue come, it will be solve easily. That we can take it bcoz love conquer all...

Is it??

Feeling peevish is a common thing.
Especially when you don't know what to do about it.



"manis-lucu-imut-menggemaskan" come in one package with "ngeselin-ngambekan-gak jelas maunya apa"

and I have to deal with it...

::The Silencer::

I am a silencer...

I can speak no word for hours
most talkactive person can stress when left alone with me
who wouldn't?

when you need friends to cheer up your day, to escape from your routine,
i just need to be ALONE...

Pencipta dan Pecinta keheningan..
that's what I am

I'm just wondering
if there's someone out there who can stand this silence..

because in this silent I know
that I am hurting someone

::Penyiksaan::

Pagi ini ada sekelompok orang
pake jas ujan warna kuning
berdiri berderet di bundaran HI
masing-masing pegang kertas dengan huruf
membentuk kata "STOP PENYIKSAAN"

??
well, siapa yang gak setuju dengan itu?
gak usah dibilangin jg orang sudah tahu
atau emang orang-orang sudah sedemikian 'dull'nya
sampai harus dibikin tulisan kayak gitu ya??


maybe,

karena aku juga sedang di'siksa'

maybe,

aku juga sedang 'menyiksa'

::The Beginning of an End::

2008 udah ampir abis... tinggal 1 hari lagi.

pfiuuuhhh

in the beginning of this year, I wrote that this year would be start everything from scratch.
and indeed..

everything is start from a scratch. bahkan sampai nungging2 mengais beras.. haha
Mencoba untuk menjalankan usaha sendiri, bergabung dengan G&I, mengalami kerugian disana-sini, menghabiskan beberapa kilo otot hasil tempaan di gym, menghabiskan malam2 sendiri di depan komputer... wueleh bener-bener merangkak dari nol.

Pertengahan tahun mulai ada pencerahan. Setelah mendapat kesempatan untuk kerja kantoran lagi, dengan pemasukan yang sedikit lebih pasti, mulai deh jam biologis teratur lagi.
Begitu juga dengan 'love life'. Setelah ada satu makhluk yang katanya 'manies, lucu dan menggemaskan' itu masuk dalam hidupku. Rasanya dunia mulai berputar normal lagi.
Tapi gak berapa lama, mulai deh kehidupan jungkir balik lagi, nungging2 lagi. Kali ini dalam artian yang sebenarnya. Lower Back injury. Luka lama yang kambuh lagi...
Sempet gak ngantor berhari-hari. Sering bolong-bolong dalam seminggu. Jadi sering marah-marah gak jelas kalo lagi jalan. Jadi berasa gak mampu menjalankan tugas dan fungsi sebagai manusia, sebagai pacar, sebagai teman, sebagai karyawan, sebagai anak, sebagai pelayan Tuhan. dooooohhh... mello bener.

Akhirnya udah sampe akhir tahun. Dan sakit ini masih nempel aja. Belum bosen rupanya dia. tapi yah, what the hell... ntar juga pergi. Sana-sana... jauh jauh..

Anyway, 2008 ini bener-bener sangat-sangat berwarna...
Hihih.. banyak lah bersyukur buat pengajaranNya
dan aku tetap merasa Dia sayangi..

::I Believe in You::

I Believe in You (Je Crois En Toi)
Il Divo feat. Celine Dion

Lonely
The path you have chosen
A restless road
No turning back
One day you
Will find your light again
Don't you know
Don't let go
Be strong

Follow you heart
Let you love lead through the darkness
Back to a place you once knew
I believe, I believe, I believe
In you

Follow your dreams
Be yourself, an angel of kindness
There's nothing that you can not do
I believe, I believe, I believe
In you.

Tout seul
Tu t'en iras tout seul
Coeur ouvert
A L'univers
Poursuis ta quete
Sans regarder derriere
N'attends pas
Que le jour
Se leve

Suis ton etoile
Va jusqu'ou ton reve t'emporte
Un jour tu le toucheras
Si tu crois si tu crois si tu crois
En toi
Suis la lumiere
N'eteins pas la flamme que tu portes
Au fonds de toi souviens-toi
Que je crois que je crois que je crois
Que je crois
En toi

Someday I'll find you
Someday you'll find me too
And when I hold you close
I'll know that is true

Follow your heart
Let you love lead through the darkness
Back to a place you once knew
I believe, I believe, I believe in you

Follow your dreams
Be yourself, an angel of kindness
There's nothing that you can not do
I believe, I believe, I believe
In you.

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::hahaha::

Right now maybe I'm just want to laugh at my self...
like I always do
with a bitter laugh this time
don't know what to do

this pain that I've been feeling is really took my patience
it's f**kng to loongg...
I'm just too tired to hear other's 'sympathy' that for my ear is like judging me for not doing nothing about this pain.
They're just suggesting here and there... while I'm still holding to what that I feel works for me. Even I don't know if I can hold this treatment any longer.
I'm loosing my hope again.

and here i am..
back to You again, Lord.
the One that I left behind...
I'm already turn my back on You
even in this darkest time in my life... even when my heart keep telling me that You're the only Light... n still here I am, complaining, mumbling, regreting, feeling shame, afraid...

Show me way back in to your arms again...
ignore all of my pain
and being one with you
My One and only...




**I know You there... smile ...

::Any Other Fools:

Any Other Fools
Patti Austin & Sadao Watanabe

I couldn't see paradise right before my eyes
And when I had you here by my side
I didn't know that no one else could ever take your place
But now I know
I know that I should have stayed
And seeing you tonight
I only wonder why
I ever said goodbye

Any other fool would never walk away
Even a fool would still be there holding you
Any other fool would know I never should have let you go
I had it all as any fool could see
Any other fool but me

Any one else never would have let the feeling die
Any one else would have fought to keep it alive
If they were in my shoes
They'd know the love we had was love too good to lose

Any other fool would never walk away
Even a fool would still be there holding you
Any other fool would know I never should have let you go
I had it all when you were loving me
I had it all as any fool could see
Any other fool but me

I had it all when you were loving me (had all the love I ever need)
I had it all as any fool could see (any other fool but me)

Any other fool would never walk away (any other fool)
Even a fool would still be there holding you
Any other fool would know I never should have let you go
I had it all as any fool could see
Any other fool but me

Any other fool but me

Even a fool would still be there holding you
Any other fool would know I never should have let you go
I had it all as any fool could see
Any other fool but me


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