.:Lack:.

Manusia selalu mencari pembenaran akan dirinya sendiri. (seperti saat ini, gw mengatasnamakan 'manusia'.. hehe)
After that 'ligtning from the past' I felt so so down. Dan karena ingin mencari pembenaran maka gw mencari kuping yg mau ndengerin gw, yang pada intinya adalah mau mengiyakan bahwa gw emang kasian. What a pity.. shame on me!

Selama ini gw jg pikir bahwa gw belum bisa ngelupain dia karena gw belum maafin dia. Ternyata bukan hanya itu. Tapi juga sebagai bentuk penyesalan yang berkepanjangan. Penyesalan yg selama ini gw bahkan ga tau mengapa gw nyesal. Dan syukurnya 'kuping' yang dengerin gw sekarang ini ga cuma jadi kuping tapi ikutan nonjok dan nunjukin apa yang selama ini gw cari. Selama ini gw pikir yang bikin gw putus ama dia adalah karena kita tidak cocok, bukan jalan Tuhan, belum jodoh, etc.
Ternyata dan emang ini gw akui, adalah karena komitmen gw yang belum terbentuk nyata. Waktu itu gw komitmen buat jalan ama dia, but that's it.. that's all no moving forward. No real action. Buktinya sekarang dia udah merid. Coba kalo masih jalan ama gw, apa sekarang gw bisa ngajak dia merid? Ini tonjokan buat gw.

That's right. That's the fact! I have to realize that, accept it and make a change... if I don't want to be like this for the rest of my life... and of course I don't!


***after sharing with Anne (thanks girl)***

.:Friday Yg Gemana Gichu:.

23.11.07

Menghabiskan hari Jumat yang tenang alias gak ada gawean.
Just finished the design for Silver Choice's Poster and browsed around for JiFFest. I'm planning to go since now I have much time. Especially for Free Screening. :-)

Around 18.31, LC call asked for some help to design the Logo for her canteen. After chitchat for a while and there's where the lightning from the past strike again. She told me that my ex already married. whoaaa....
pain, regret, jealous, etc it's all coming back. At that moment I just want to share with someone.. and found out that there's no one online.
At that moment I just want to sing "So Not Over U"-Simply Red.. and funny thing is I can't find it in my Playlist...OMG.
God just don't want me to get mellow and suddenly the phone rang..
"Mau tiket ke JakJazz ga? Free!" No more second thought, I just say "Definitely!"

At 20.13 arrived at O Channel to picked up the ticket (thanx to Lia & Mr. Denny) and rushed to Istora Senayan.
JakJazz 2007 held in indoor & outdoor Istora Senayan Jakarta.
First ,I went to Big Stage 2 and watched Danny & Marlayne Connection from Netherland. Took some picture of them.. (actually my reason go to this festival is to shoot the performance.. hehe)
2nd, went to Super Premium Stage and watched Shionoya Shatoru. They're good.. excellent.. really enjoyed.
3rd, while have some dinner, watch the Elfa's Big Band & Voices at Big Stage 1.
4th, while waiting for Maliq to perform, I catched the Curtis King Band at Garden Stage. His band is awesome, great vocal and performance. It's jazz rock n' roll.. US style.
5th, finally watched Maliq n D'essentials live! Picture here !
sure they have the talent... watching Live is always have a great experience.

Got back around 00.30, checked the pictures from camera. and... there you go the torturing night is begun..
can't sleep at all...